Allie Crandell

Allie is insanly beautiful, that's one thing for sure! She's one of the perfect ones, just take a look at her brows and her face, body and alien eyes! P-E-R-F-E-C-TION indeed!

Though this isn't Allie, I couldn't help but take it and show you guys...

I mean just take a look at this incredibly perfect body! I AM STUNNED!

BE STRONG, BELIEVE!

Alive..

..even though I am still alive I haven't runned out of hope... yet.. or I did, but this picture brought it back to life.. I am going to look like this, I am one way or another, I'll find out how to make it!!
Only 1 year and half an year left!!

BE STRONG. BELIEVE!

Probably the very end!

It's not like you can blame me for wanting, badly I might just as well add, to look like that. Anabela and Snejana is totally adorable, skinny and................... PERFECT!

I haven't been in school for about 3 weeks, which was suppose to be a secret.. but the secret is out! They threathed once again to make me move.. but after playing some on my inocence, and cried and so on, they let me stay on some terms, though...

1) Eat, in school as well, he'll probably have someone watching me..

2) Go to school, which I want to quit btw.

3) No word-twisting

4) Be happy, well I'm ceartinly not, so pretending is obviously what my life will depend on, if I could become an actress or not!

How can they even demand such a thing? I mean the did pretty much extinguish my hope and turned all my dreams down, and the have the guts to demand happiness out of me?

Well, if this is what they want.. then I wont eat in vain anymore!

Take a look at this marveous creature, she is PERFECT for crying out loud!

In a few years, hopefully, I'll look like that. Then I'll be unstopable, I'll be PURE PREFCTION!

There is one thing I dont understand though.. Why do people have to be so jellouse? Why cant the allow me to look insanely beautiful as one of those runway models ? It's not fair, and do not tell me that life is not fair cause it would be if people cared less about eachother and more about thereselves.. But they are to retarded, egoistic, envious and ... I cant even find the right word to continue this sentens, that's incrediously bad!!!

However.. the question remains, is it worth living as a prisoner in one and half an year tops, or is suecide something to suspect?

Essyy, when/if you read this I might not be alive, and then I just want you to know that you cant give up, you have to fight it, for me and for you, for finding happiness once and for all!

FIND THE WILL!

BE STRONG. BELIEVE!

Moving on guite well.

So. My healthiterian thing is moving on quite well, great matter of fact..

As it is, I am forbidden to loose wheight.. But then I thought, if I clean my body from sugar ect. then when I'm not "in need" of going to the control meeting anymore, I could definitly loose everything.. And then my body is quite clean as well..

However.

BE STRONG, BELIEVE

Healthiterian, the real deal?

Once again I'm sitting here, in front of the computer as so many times before this... And this time, as well, I'm doing the very same thing - EATING, and not whatever, matter of fact it's chips and candy that I am eating.(The last words make me wanna vomit, the reason I had to say it, to torture myself.)

Bad habits or An obsession?

Well I am not allowing myself to be the second one, you see, I've done that to many times no.. I've told myself "This ceartinly is the very last time, so I allow you to eat that stuff today" or " It doesn't matter if you eat today, perhaps you'll die tomorrow". But the thing is I am STILL alive, and with that said I cant allow myself stuff like that, when i dont even enjoy it!

So I came up with this new thing, since I'm in desperation of following orders, though, only the ones I make myself.

I am from now on a anti-canditerian, which is the same as a healthiterian. A anti-canditerian do not eat candy at all... And a healthiterian do only eat healthy, they dont eat for sugar of any shape, if they have to they instead take, for instant, honey.

So this is all starting tomorrow, with one exeption.. If I HAVE to eat some of the disgusting kind of things, it's only one that week..

BE STRONG, BELIEVE!

Enough Already!!

So I know I've been complaining, with good reason, though, about my life and so on..
So I thought like... "Enough already!!"

From no on I'll talk (or complain.. whatever) about what this blog was all about from that begining..

Fashion that is!

I'll probably talk about my life as well, but I'll cut it short these times.